Wednesday, December 28, 2011
Splatter, Splotches and Fuzzy Brains
Splattered. Splotchy. Fuzzy thinking. Long periods of staring at nothing.
That about sums up the last two weeks of my life.
I seem to have missed that time of year....that transitional period between ending and beginning, as if time is paused, so I could get my new year off to a great start by laying out plans, goals and dreams.
The ending of 2011 was a tough time and the beginning of 2012 is not off to a stellar start....
We lost our sweet Siberian Husky, Susie, on December 30th.
She had been sick for a while now, and it was touch-and-go during the holidays.
We then took Andi, another of our puppies, to the vet on Monday as she has been feeling poorly.
She has lymphoma.
Andi has a very limited amount of time. It depends on how she responds to the meds we're giving her.
Yesterday, my 15-month-old niece was taken to the hospital after having a seizure.
The baby was moved from ICU to a regular room and we're hoping she'll be released today. So far, no conclusions on what caused the seizure.
As I said, not a great ending nor a recommend way to start off a new year.
What I'm learning.....is that life, and that mythical thing known as balance, is a very fluid thing.
In my case, most of the fluid of life has shifted towards my pets and family. The blog has been (too) quiet, my work hasn't been getting the normal attention I show it, and daily chores haven't been kept up as normal.
I've decided to give this time to myself, as a gift and that it's okay.
To take the time to grieve, to let the new year take off without me being in a happy, celebratory mood, to put family first.
Maybe tomorrow, maybe next week, I'll be back.
Right now, I need to heal, to be close to family, and to spend time with Andi.
I hope you understand.
I wish you the very best of the new year.